It is....

cancer canceled out.

Now may i type normally and correct my errors?

no? or yes? can you see past the rest? i ,know you can so please just let me be....in love....i fell. out i did never. now i see how correcting errors can be a good thing. i wish to no longer lie through words, i wish to speak my mind absurd as is yours but you know, you know....we gotta take it slowly.

SO IT'S CANCELED!!! hi i mean....the virus that kills us all? yes.

i drink weed, i smoke friends....i need my air to breathe, my friends to please. is that enough for you? is that enough?

i hope so but..."i have unearned luck"
why!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

i did nothing wrong

yes, i lied....i lied to you all.

but wait---debate why did i lie?

in waiting for an honorable prize!

the countdown it will come, it's now
and devils should go take a bow because

they are saved.

read the bible, the holy, the only.
only read it backwards to understand, at least for me.

because to left i am right
too right to be left so wrong i am
in every way
but j saves everyone today....so to say: J IS A JOINT. A JOINT COMMUNITY, A JOINTED LOVE INDEED.

IT'S GREEN....

its weed....and it's illegal, don't ya know.

DOES NOT GOTTA BE....

it is.

NOT IF THE LAIR IS REVEALED

it's me, i take the sins of fields
grown rich with it and ripe with gales
rain and thunder never fails neither do i,
now i'm slowing down....

how long till you conquer this town?
j
hmmm?

I'm sorry

to end this early, it would have been a catastrophe though...see my other blog for details.

*edit* not AN ADDIT!!! i mean edit hahah my typings messed up but to explain myself i'm not addicted to acting.

i'm addicted to energy and energizements that are on their way as well spoken.
Sometimes poetry can't be taken from a heart that's broken.

I hate cheesy stuff, and i love cheese. So what do i do with an allergy?
I take it away, take it back to where it came from
Hell is such a wonderful sight when viewd from the eye of the malstrom
Pot is an addictive drug, but baby wihtout it i would have flown as a dove
And you know i hate to fly, i fear it.
On the ground or at least right near it
Is where I like to be.

I-k. OPK??? Paphid loves everyone, especially bree and it's not me
Talking but hell who knows who knows when they will show
I'll let the errors go on, if you don't mind to know....

medititation is the key but wherre's the answrr?

i'm typing frunk after just a bit of cancer
we all die but not to worry
death cancles love in a rushed hurry
then returned with a provecy....upand down lead them you gobline.

the show must gone he said it be not so.
i sound like shakespeare, now doth owe
him everything and all he wonts he shall have
especcialy his changeling lad.

what's this? he assks....who ya think? i answer.
he is with me and always will be until....

"the time we speak again
until the time we LOVE again
we'll BLIND our eyes and NUMB our lips
PAINTING [ICTYIRES IN THE WONDEROUS WOULD
WITHOUT FINGERTIPS.
SO NOW TO eSCAPE THE SERPERNTS TONGUE
WE'L MAKE AMMEDNDS HERE LONG."

someone correct my eeroos, please oh wait not htat you mean....ARROWS? OH!!!

"I go i go, look how i go swifter than an arrow from a tar-tar's bow"
we are awake, and one and whole.

canceled is but the rabbit's holy union it is with me now....and i will set him freee aas promised...with a prophecy.

yah...kinda silly i know...see my actor's blog for more details.

Curtain Down-Applause?

none. Appraise is up though, apparently.

Or maybe a prayer just flew my way :)

So for thos esmart minded indiduals who actually read between the lines, congratulations. For those that hadn't....hehe, well SURPRISE!!

Finding Forrester is a funny movie but I always though my father more suitable for the part.

Not because, but why was it not me? My father is dying of cancer, I will see him soon. I don't mind that he gave me everything he wanted which was simply his undying passion. I knew what it was before I saw it ;)

My father loved me more than anyone in this universe, so he needed it to expand. There is a shuttle leaving for.....?

Hahaha, I'm sorry....some secrets are still kept but I hope it is not too far from home as I do get very homesick quickly.

However, back to the job at hand---I canceled. I don't want to do the play, it's too....cheesy for me. I'm allergic to lactose you see and that play was just too fun and games. We have a more serious issue to discuss and it will be done with love lust and all of the above.

Night guys!

Understanding

Understanding the entire script is vital. "I cannot stress enough..." Yes, it's vital.

Details are important but the whole sometimes needs to be taken into careful consideration. For the past few weeks details were scrutinized, and a conclusion reached. But wait! the conclusion may be quite surprising...or anticipated :)
Once again, let me remind you-Do not have a set fixed character. that is the director's idea to play with ;)

An actor by nature (yes it exists in our modern world now) has to be as an open book. Pages empty, too. I write as well so I have a good view from both angles, but acting was always my little thing. I did that before I even learned to write!

But enough chitter chatter. Tomorrow is our first real rehearsal. I can't wait!

I know it will be the happiest I've been for the few weeks we were just studying lines. That's because "Actors get bored when they're not acting. They just don't know what to do." This quote is not mine :)

That quote was by Alan, our producer and was a hopeful director until Gary came in. I don't really know there's some drama going on backstage again *rolls eyes*

Oh this is also good experience for an actor: When I was in high school, I joined the running crew and tech crew (though at that-I sucked! Yeah, I can't believe it either!!). It's very good to know what's going on all around even if you don't like it. Ignorance serves best to those who don't pay but knowledge is a given.

Anticipate!

The rehearsals.

Oh it's tough, isn't it?
Read between the lines of your character to fully understand what's going on. You have by now tried different methods, different actions to reach the same objectives and probably have a good mental view of the character already. Now is when rehearsals start and you pick a different way to play every night for the first week, usually but don't force it, first week's always for fun. It usually will come down to what the director tells you to do and what you feel comfortable with performing.

We have also already seen a set design for our stage. We have an excellent theatre, great sound and...amazing set though it sadly changes very little as always in Shakespeare. This means it's up to the actors alone to entertain and create a forest, castle or whatever so the audience can visualize it.

Yes, it is a challenge but all it really means is that actions must speak louder than words to keep the attention of the audience. Let's face it: Who'd want to just sit there watching two blokes standing stiff as surf boards talking in 3 minute monologues droning?
Not me, that's for sure.

So because this is a melo-drama which already means it needs to be BIG it needs to be even BIGGER to hit this AZ audience because they don't understand the difference between sarcastically exaggerating and bad acting, and I'll admit the line is thin....but not too thin, it's still walkable! :)

Starting Over

Oh dear...it seems I caught myself just in time. See when I auditioned for Puck I did what I said not to-and already had an almost set character knowing full well I was garanteed that part or Titania. I had the funniest walk down and was looking forward to experimenting with this character's movements and what it could/couldn't do.

However...just because you got the part doesn't mean you should keep it just that way. You got the part because yes, you did great at the auditions but you really got it because the director wants to see what else he can do with it, so be prepared to make some changes as I stated in my last entry.

I have to make many many changes...the funny lil walk I had for this character will NOT work in a clown collar skirt unless we plan to make this some weird goblin porn. Furthermore, I am not even sure anymore of my costume as I obviously (hopefully) will not be wearing a clown collar skirt. I saw one quick drawn sketch only and...well it wasn't much different from what I wore for photoshoot as far as the characters free movement range goes and so forth.

I do hope I'll get to climb a tree though! But what to do about the darn physical personality of Puck? I have it's jokes and pranks down, but that's just a small portion....

So, here is what you do when you're in a rut about finding the characters body:

Nothing :(

There's nothing you can do but practice different styles to show off at rehearsal. This is the time of waiting and thinking. Acting's not really involved :'-(

It is very difficult for me with my excitement to hold back and not just go about developing a character based off assumptions as I am in fact, very good at guess work and improvisation. However, this is the time I lay the script down. There are no rehearsals until the end of this month and there is nothing but memorization I can allow myself to work on. I already have my lines memorized so I'm going to be the grumpy work-a-holic I am when I have nothing to work on.

Or perhaps I'll just divulge in a little play of my own :)

again XD

An Unexpected Call

Reached me on monday of this week.

"We'll be having a photo session and costume parade at 4 if you can make it give me a call."

Of course by now we know to call back, right?

Sometimes things will pop up out of nowhere. Remember when I talked of relaxed readiness? A much better picture of this is a lion at hunt or a regular car drive. Basically all this means is relax and expect anything and everything. That also helps greatly with improvisation.

It's because I've already achieved that state that I was not angered that Karla had screwed up the times a bit and even given two girls the same part....though she should be doing her job as stage manager. However, still you need to be ready when they are lest it is your moment on the stage.

So what exactly is a costume parade and photo session? Well before the play (usually not THIS much before) the director and costume designers get together with a handful of actors to try on first tries of the costume. This also gives the director a clear view of what they'll be working with and how to best apply lighting and make-up. (Thirty minutes in make-up here, but then again...i am a puck!)

And ironically, and definitely to the entire campus' amusement these costumes were not finished, very flimsy and well...mine was a piece of lengerie with a clowns neck-collar as a skirt (don't ask how it fit, must have been a metal head clown) and the rest was scarves and twigs....so be prepared to...develop a character once again from scratch to fit the costume and director's idea.

Secondly, if you happen to be walking through campus in nothing but togas and sandals and scarves and the director does want you up in a tree HAVE FUN WITH IT! Because it's these slightly outrageous moments every actor loves. Even if your near bare cootch is being scraped up by a tree and you realize too late that your shoes are still on making both producer and director work on the unkottable knots you tied in there ages ago. lol even that can be learned from-wear easy clothing to remove and reapply at every rehearsal.

And another tip about actual pictures: The professional camera moves faster than yours, you can hear it by the clicks. In between those clicks (if you can move lol and you're not dangling in a tree by your last breath) is when you act your character, stopping before each click. Now if you do happen to be dangling in a tree with your tummy and leg muscles screaming you'll really put forth all you got because guess what-that's the only way down. There's facial expressions to make up for little body movement but don't be afraid to change posture as long as you plan it out ahead of time in your noggin, and move quickly enough.

One thing I personally always loved about photosessions was the fact that as much fun you may have with it shows in the finished product. Not only that but it's crazy fun to race a camera click to your next expression or pose. One thing I know I need to work on is looking/not looking at the camera and how that affects shots because eyes squint in sunlight and that makes the puck look a true creature of the night.

Difficulties

Today's topic should have come a lot sooner. but we were busy, weren't we sweetheart?

What is the most difficult part about acting a part or acting in general? This question ran out my mouth before my head could even put the words together in the beach ball game today. The beach ball game is a game we play to warm up, much like circle-sit or anything else. Someone makes a suggestion on a topic, question, or task and all follow through.

Well, it turned out I picked a good question. For me anyway. There are over 10 people in my class, 11 of which said the auditioning process. 2 said memorizing lines and one said trying to figure out what Shakespeare was trying to say LOL.

Now this is also good as an actor: Never follow the heard but be as honest with yourself as you can possibly be. So I was.

I said what scared me most about acting was the not acting part, what to do when there wasn't a character in play.

A lot of you can relate to this though you may not know it, but if you've read back when I stated every person presents themselves with certain style, and develops their own type of character you'll realize that hey--even you might not know what to do when you're not being "you".

Try this excercise: Lay flat on the floor with nothing in arms reach, at all. Remove all clothing if possible if not, belts, bras, bracelets-anything uncomfortable will do. You'll need to be completely comfy and relaxed in order to make up for how uncomfortable you will feel.

(**NOTE: This technique was not developed by me, it was passed to me from a teacher who'll remain anonymous. I have worked with this person a long time ago when I was 7 then once again when I was 12 and they have truly opened specific doors I had shut)

Enough of that, comfy? Now you'll want to close your eyes and let go of any facial expressions or tensions you might have been holding on to. Breathe deeply but not forced, and slowly let yourself fall close to sleep. Now, once you're in that state of relaxed readiness go back. Back to your least favorite memory and picture it clear as the blackness covering your eyes. DON'T MOVE! It will be tempting as the memory plays clearer and digs deeper into your brain, but do not move. tie yourself down, if you can :)

Now watch the memory, and try as much as you can to watch it without any muscle movement, even facial expression. Once that's mastered try again, this time without feeling the memory at all. If you've taken it to the point that the memory makes you laugh, you've accomplished what I wanted from you.

Stop. Do the same excercise a day later with your happiest memory. Note the results and how many times you needed to do it.

This excercise is relevant to a true actor because it makes them able to let go of any of their own feelings, or any influences and makes them a blank slate actor, which I think I mentioned on here before...it's truly satisfying to achieve that state, and also very sad.

Cloud 666 looks better every day!

Read!

Throughs!

Yep, after you get cast and all you will have a read-through. but we already knew we were cast :)

Read through's are boring, tedious, annoying times but luckily you only have one or two. They are very important however, as it lets an actor ask questions on the script before rehearsals start.

I want to stress on asking questions. For anything you don't understand except small words and things you can look up later. If anything's unclear, the director will know, and if he doesn't well goody for you, you just gave him another 15 minutes of work for the night.

Now when I first ever did a read through years ago, I remember thinking "well this isn't acting"
and no, it's not acting at the core itself however as with anything, there will be times when you don't happen to like the process it will take to get you up on stage and playing the part.

What you can expect is a bunch of tired and grumpy actors sitting around bored and butt sore reading for three hours or more tapping their pencils and faking laughs here and there.

This, however, is usually not the case. It's good to expect the worst :)

Dailing....

Hello, you've reached the callbacks!

As did I. Callbacks were today, more exactly yesterday, and I figured we'd learn a bit more.

Firstly I've learned that when coming to an audition it's better to be early than on time as you won't have time to read through the scenes. Ahem, small mistake on that part. but we'll keep it shush for now
Also, it's usefull to have your own scene prepared, just in case, an exerpt from the play you're in, more specifically if you remember, the first introduction of your character.

So what do you do if you get called back? Aside from letting your dogs know, it's a good idea to call back the stage manager and tell them you'll be coming.

Now callbacks are varied, as are auditions but one thing about play callbacks that I find curious is that at the first audition you're usually on the stage and by the callback they cram you all into a tiny black box. hah if they thought the stage would intimidate some they had another thing comin!

Yeah, nothing like getting to know the family LOL.

However, this is done for several reasons one of which being: the stage is frightening. Not for us actors obviously but for the people who try out just because they have nothing better to do.

A Midsummernight's Dream is being performed at my COLLEGE and I saw a girl in their with her MOTHER. The worst was, she looked just like me at the pepsi commercial years ago.

I cannot stress enough how vital auditions are in getting just a small picture of who you actually have to work with. But that's directing stuff, I'm skipping ahead.

Callbacks. What to expect? A hello for one thing :)

Most likely this is the time that the director choses scenes for you. They may give you a scene to practice with a partner. They may just give you a whole bunch of scenes.

If it's the first, you're kind of lucky. If it's the latter, the tension's higher but so is your focus so it evens out.

It was the latter. Gary gave me five scenes. I didn't know who'd be my partner.

In this situation it's easy to get a little uneasy. That's not okay, grab the scene and start reading!

If I'm really nervous it helps to not just read the scene but act it out. I really never gave a damn who watched and it's the most valuable advice I can give to this day. If you're on a bus going to an audition...who cares if you look like a schiz.

Yes, I got some weird stares too and even some angry glares. I don't really care though because when I finally went in, I got the reactions I had been hoping for.

And that's all acting is, really, pulling desired reactions out of an audience by entertainment, drama or comedy.

One more thing: If they ask you to read for a part you hadn't originally wanted, go for it anyway because A) Good experience and B) You just might like the other character.

Landing

Ahem...full attention.

Landing an audition. oh it's about time i gave it proper thought

As some of you know, I have one today. I like to intensely review right before hand, then go into it not a rehearsed character but more of an open slate keeping all these important details in mind.

Although, I have a rehearsed character prepared as Puck (Robin Goodfellow) I am still open to any modifications at this point having only worked from a scene sheet for now. This is already one good thing to remember: Pick a scene of the play that explains most about the character. It will be easier to get a feel of them and then more fun to play around with.

The best scene for this is usually the first appearance of this character in a play. As it usually introduces them. (duh lol)

So after you have your scene picked out and read over it a few times (making sure to mark unclear parts and words, right?) rehearse a few times, read-through style but don't hold back. Try it several ways. Ask a friend or possible fellow future cast-mate (you always want to ask someone you find fits your own style for style review past blogs) what they think, but don't take it to heart. Only the casting director should tell you what to do and let it stick.

This is important to elaborate on. Lots of actors tend to come to me and ask "Is this good?" or "How should I do this?" and you know what I say? A-S-K--T-H-E--D-I-R-E-C-T-O-R!

Why?

Because the play, though pre-written, is being put up the way he/she sees fit. and some can be real nasty too
So moving on, once you've got a basic feel for the character and know what it's about put the script down. DON'T TOUCH IT!

Re read it once or twice before actually going in, to refresh your mind but it's always best not to over-rehearse as that will already be an ingrained character and auditions call for open slates.

Now, walking in you might get nervous. I sure do.

Realize that this is the fun part. How much fun you have with it will later decide how you feel if you fail or succeed.

Drink an energy drink lol

And go play!

Make sure you're presenting yourself with the style you want, make eye contact walking in, saying hello, be polite and during the scene, only make eye contact if it calls for it.
Some asides do, for example.

IF YOU STUTTER OR STUMBLE: It's okay. First off you're only human. Second, it just might be damn funny if you stay in character because characters are humans too.

Lastly, listen to the response. (Even during the scene but that's another installment lol of Audience there/not there also called the "fourth wall")

Once you've finished, the casting director may ask you to do it differently. They may ask you to read for another part. This is where we don't think, just do it. We're already not nervous and we're just having fun. Let's hope they give you a minute to read through it (though some are assholes and won't)

Once it's over before they tell you to get the fuck out they'll probably give you some helpful tips of advice. It's these that you want to memorize. yes out of the whole damn process!

You know over the years I've built up a very wide collection of advice and tips from people and directors alike, and one thing I can say is nothing will help you along farther than really thinking each through and using what you need.

Some ways to do that is to keep an acting journal. Kinda like this one. Take it to rehearsals, auditions, hell take it everywhere.

Write in every piece of advice you find useful.

This is very Funny...

So children it seems the clues have been figured out by none other than a somewhat trusted source.

Very good, 100 points to ya. but i'm deducting 5 for your smart-ass attitude :p

So it seems that with all the dumb-asses out in the world there really still are a few bright minded individuals, who have actually managed to con a con artist. Bravo!

Don't let yourself get too proud, however...Dally will have her own way of dealing with this.

As for me, I'm not too mad...more amused. definitely impressed but if your ego grows bigger than your ass you might as well just land where i am.

Don't I catch on fast?

DisAppearance

Okay what the damn title says lol.

How many of you strip? I meant character-wise at night when you're sleeping dreaming of whatever, buns. Yes buns.

It's not too important, really. Learn to sleep as a character and you've really got the ball going. However, Metanya says this isn't healthy.
don't listen to her, she's the drunk melancholy girl in my closet.
So exactly where do characters go if they're let go?

Isn't it bedtime children?

When a particular character in this case we'll take Alida as I portray her currently, becomes no more than lines on paper is when the part goes to rest. It lives on in the actor's skin, no doubt, but may stay asleep. After this monday Alida will be put to rest as she should, in a tattered script.

I should have performed on Wednesday but I got distracted. There's a nice horn to blow...don't get distracted.

But that really is for another time, kids.

Mellow Yellow Melo-drama!

Oh yes haha, today's topic....melo-drama in this century. OOOH!!

I thought what the heck, mix in some of what I'm currently studying with what I've collected so far.

So far? I don't like 'em.

Firstly, a melo-drama is an exaggeration. It's a style of acting developed wayyy back when there were shhh....silent movies. Because they could only get in so much dialogue in each screen cap, their actions had to speak louder to be understood. there are other things that speak louder and listen better but take that any way you wish.
So offering someone a glass of water may look like they're trying to drown them.

While practicing my scene today, I had to try hard to keep that in mind. I mean now-a-days we just don't do that anymore. Now-a-days things have to seem real, we look for characters we relate to and like to think of their reality as our own. oh silly girl don't you know so well...
In melo-drama, it's very obvious acting. very horrible acting if ye ask me

Because I hated it so much I needed to find something to lighten my mood so I chose an action for my character I do not think she'd ordinarily do. It works perfectly for the fake acting look however, and I guess that's what matters.

My mother was melo-dramatic....perhaps I should watch my actions?

Meet the Public

So if you've kept up with this you're surely interested in this art form of expression. This is more aimed toward the actor himself, or any of you folks thinking about it.

Do you meet your public? Do you stay in character doing so?

These are important questions you need to consider. As a rule it used to be said actors should not meet their public and I have to agree, as the audience comes to see a particular spectacle, a specific character. I strongly believe a character deserves a life of their own and when the curtain closes is when it should be put to rest.

I never went out after performances simply because I follow the rules. I don't like disrespecting a character's right to live and be alive and be seen as just that. However, recently I participated in a small production (weeks rehearsal with two performances) and decided to break my rule. I learned what makes an actor really great.

As I exited the dressing rooms and headed for the gallery I did, in fact, take on my public part, but for once instead of sneaking out the back way, I joined my fellow actors in the gallery which was still filled with half the audience. So guess what happened.

Yup, no one recognized me! And that is what makes an actor truly shine, is in those moments that realization hits to the audience--they've just been conned. That's what they came for anyway.

I thought of becoming a con artist....I'd be great! But teaching's more fun.

Ya learned something, didn't ya?

Coincidence?

Today we'll talk about coincidence vs consequence. Logic vs imagination. Important key points for every person.

What's a coincidence?
Dictionary.com says: "a striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance".

Hmm...fascinating, correct? What does consequence say?

"the conclusion reached by a line of reasoning; inference"

Now put the two together you wind up with: "A striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance and the conclusion reached by a line of reasoning."

This is called The Nature of Rationality.

But who wants to read all that? Haha, so what does it mean in regular terms? Simply that some things that may look one way, are perceived differently leading to a conclusion the brain creates by it's own line of reasoning.

Clear?

Good!

Logic vs Imagination
is logical imagination, right? hehe
What's logic? Dictionary says: "the system or principles of reasoning applicable to any branch of knowledge or study."

Imagination: "forming mental images or concepts of what is not actually present to the senses."

Put them together and what do you get? A very sick mental patient.

Now we're getting to the good part, what's an actor?

Funny enough, I found nothing to satisfy or even compare to my definition. Dictionary says: "a person who does something; participant." and that was the closest I could find.

An actor as I see it, takes logic, laughs at it, then takes coincidence, ties it with imagination so they get a resulting consequence.
did you quite get it yet???
What that consequence is, is what will fuel the actor (during a scene) back to logical thought which he'll abandon on account coincidence (say a bird flies through the theater yes that has happened to us in acting school) letting his imagination run too far and getting another, usually more grand consequence. This up-drop scale continues throughout many many plays of Shakespeare's time. And who wouldn't study the master?

I never enjoyed Shakespearean plays much because of the cheesy language and even cheesier plots. However, I too had to learn all that crap to be able to call myself an actor at all. It helped me greatly with characterization back in the day, and helps me even now with upholding the scene.

*Just a reminder: Shakespeare was the first rapper. (My father always said, and...well it's true)

by the way....have you found it yet?

Self Control

Self control is vital for every human being.
and some human beings are vital for sself control
Fact.
no contest
Self control is life for an actor.
and the actor portrays self control
Truth.
that's the way it is.
Understand the lines in between. Nothing gets overseen, correct? Good, moving on.

Destination plays a nice chunk of self control. Have a good enough destination and determination will provide you with an excellent boost of self control.

I'm not a control freak, mind you haha. I'm actually more a negotiator/instigator. However the line is thin, that's true.
Yet no, I am simply amazed by the power of control, self control in particular.
It's how Dally stayed so damn charming.

Understanding that self control is not to be used heavily, meaning only with half-thought is already a valuable lesson to begin with.
learn to wink then blink twice
Don't center your mind on it, rather push it to the back where it sticks permanently. Realization will come once this is achieved, for most already do this since childhood.

However I see with some it is not so...how come? What makes a woman so terrified of heights she refuses to climb onto a roof?

It is not a roof. It just is. Do what you need to do with what you perceive.

Self control means doing things sometimes thoughtlessly. Now advanced self control means doing things without a thought. (*Which I, of course have achieved) twinkle and smile!

Why? silly...

Because you can have self control or master it. Umm like, you can play a part, or be a part.
oh it seems i confused that little head of mine....
So where does it come from? GOOD QUESTION!

Oh boy...logically, the brain. Illogically however, and ironically correct, is from a need or desire, though it would have to be a very strong desire indeed somewhat like the desire fat people have for devouring hamburgers at odd hours of the night.

Yes, you're right! That was a WRONG example!

Find the right one.

Getting In, Not Coming Out

Happy Valentines Day for all the LIL's who celebrate. No I have nothing against Losers In Love I simply think that's what they are. It also so happens I too bought roses and balloons for my current someone, so don't consider yourself outcasts.

Today we will talk about getting into character, as opposed to building one. This will be short as I have little time to get into mine for our scene showing.

*Intersting fact that just popped in: Actors have a one-percent higher chance at schizophrenia than most of us*

Lucky me, I'm part of a very exclusive study haha!

Anyhoots, usually when people we see daily like Mom, Dad, brothers, friends, we don't actually see them but their character. We judge by the style they put out and the way they present themselves *Review last post for full re-cap*

Well how do you guys get into character each morning? Most of you already do it subconciously/automatically. This is very true for me as well.
The only difference is for a good 8 years I had to keep it up all the time, including nights of drinking/tripping and fucking. *I highly suggest for any person who wants to make a presentable impression to save the hard alcohol for the home, k?*

So how did I get into character?

After building, I'd first actually use a mirror and change myself to fit my character as I saw her. Not just physical looks but obviously personality, energy, style and expressions. I had to change the way I walked, dressed and then feel comfortable in my new skin. I also had to remind myself, while I may have looked like Dally I was still a person that had once existed. I thought it would be easy to bring back but not really lol.

Perhaps you can find a loophole around it?

I know lots of you guys live to act and this is a fun (but sightly dangerous) way of expanding in a short amount of time.

Or you could just build from the ground up.

And the Prophecy Said....

"Be not afraid, but act wisely. Stare but never let your eyes linger. Most of all remember what thou art, but never forget who thou wants to be."

Like it? Review it. Still like it? Haha.

We won't start where we left off, kids.

Because a mind can only keep track of so much at a time, and because personally, I just don't feel like starting there right now.

We'll talk instead of characterization. Oh the very steps!

A normal person acts daily. A normal person, not an actor, has a character. They do things certain ways, present themselves with certain style. This has become vital for survival.

However it was never one of our basic needs. Food, shelter, water and for most some sense of security make up the early man's agenda.

So who was the first bloke to pick up a rock, call it a lion and start fighting it viciously making such a realistic impression that others began to watch and imitate. Watch and imitate. Repetition works, see.

So indeed, every person is an imitation of the first bloke to pick up a rock and fight it as a lion. Think about that next time you think me insane.

A Stage Door Is Opened

I think I destinctly remember using that before...oh well.

Hi, my name's not important as I'm sure you'll warm up to me without it. Everyone does.

As this is the first introduction for many of you I will be somewhat honest concerning my existence. I exist not in your world, not in Dally's reality but in my own. I lived a wonderful almost realistic life, and in this particular blog wish to capture any ideas that might have slipped past the void into forgetfullness.

So...let's begin?

For the past oh nearing 8 years you've all known someone named Dally, knowing also, this is not her real name. About 10 years ago, a little tiny tot named Nasti was wondering what the hell to do with her passion for acting that her father was basically banning her from. She wasn't satisfied by acting school and productions, wasn't at all satisfied when she landed a commercial audition and had to drag a seething Dad out of the office AFTER finding out she'd landed the thing with gas to spare. However, she let the part go and instead vowed to uphold her dignity by just doing what no one believed she could. Or what her Dad didn't want her to.

She planned, she wrote, re-wrote and worked slaving over a character that was sure to blow minds. This character became charmingly known as Dally and soon Nasti became obsessed. She took on the character when another character (And strangely enough you will soon learn that there are an infinite number of people involved in this only half of which actually own names.) named Mike* came into her life, not so accidentially. It was funny because as Nasti had laid out the plot she incorporated the details of each individual her character was to come across. Funny enough, the two characters, Mike and Dally quickly spiraled into the somewhat doomed relationship Nasti had written out for them. Oh yes it was perfect....almost.

Mike was quite the character too, and sometimes his responses coincided with what Dally was thinking so well she nearly dropped her kettle. It's happened a number of times, Dally would be spending time with Mike as was their routine and she'd find herself mouthing the words of her companion as he spoke. This of course fed her imagination more.

Now it came to a time that Dally as a created, unreal character began questioning her own sanity. At first Nasti wasn't too sure how to go about this, wondering just how far she would let herself fall into the spiral but it was a lost cause since she'd already began living as Dally. Her responses to her parents became a mix and things went blurry for a while until one pretty darn fateful evening made for a...level increase of sorts.

Mike was by no means the kind of guy Nasti would have dated, but he was exactly the guy Dally loved to fuck. Dally wasn't a whore, I'd say more of a don't matter don't care type. As Dally, Nasti could easily let go of any problems at home, or at school and pretty soon despite the dangers she fell in love with her self created character.

One night however, she had to come to the realization of a few things. 1) Just because she was a character didn't make her invincible
and 2) Her character really hated her.

It happened very quickly and was over before I realized then what I know now. Mike and Dally had a fight, (those were getting common) and a knife came into the game. Mike could have, he possibly would have, had it not been for the words "you kids cut that out!" from a neighbor. We were at the side of his house, easily seen so it ended then and there, but for once I think Nasti lost some of her cockiness and Dally realized her character was more real than Nasti had dreamt her up to be. Duh! Anyone could have told me that, right?
Well I was 14, who would I listen to?

After this incident, Dally's character bounced between mental hospitals and drugs made for a really fun ride, no doubt, but her entire being had already become too stylized, she only knew what Dally knew. Nasti had finally crossed from playing a character, to becoming that character and finally to living that character's life.

Mike was put in jail about 3 years ago. Nasti was nearing her sixteenth birthday and his family had taken her and her mother to St. Bart for a family vacation of sorts. It was shortly after their return that Mike and Dally had another confrontation but this wasn't the kind you get away with unscathed. Broken foot and a couple stitches later Dally was watching Mike get taken away in a cop car and nearly vomited. The fact was that Mike had molded Dally a great deal, while Nasti made the character, Mike directed it. This became evident when a few days later Dally was asked about their relationship. Years of acting a role had given her a lightning speed mind and she convinced the interrigation officer that Mike's intentions weren't to harm, but to better.

With Nasti running on auto-pilot Dally had her out of the way and was ready to tackle life again as a creation of a schizophrenic mind, or as my best friend used to say, an actor's greatest role.
Dally was determined to keep the plot going, in the back of her head telling herself she'd stop once she turned 18.

Next, she crossed paths with a very interesting person but that's for another time children! hahaha...seriously its enough for now.


*Names have been changed