It is....

cancer canceled out.

Now may i type normally and correct my errors?

no? or yes? can you see past the rest? i ,know you can so please just let me be....in love....i fell. out i did never. now i see how correcting errors can be a good thing. i wish to no longer lie through words, i wish to speak my mind absurd as is yours but you know, you know....we gotta take it slowly.

SO IT'S CANCELED!!! hi i mean....the virus that kills us all? yes.

i drink weed, i smoke friends....i need my air to breathe, my friends to please. is that enough for you? is that enough?

i hope so but..."i have unearned luck"
why!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

i did nothing wrong

yes, i lied....i lied to you all.

but wait---debate why did i lie?

in waiting for an honorable prize!

the countdown it will come, it's now
and devils should go take a bow because

they are saved.

read the bible, the holy, the only.
only read it backwards to understand, at least for me.

because to left i am right
too right to be left so wrong i am
in every way
but j saves everyone today....so to say: J IS A JOINT. A JOINT COMMUNITY, A JOINTED LOVE INDEED.

IT'S GREEN....

its weed....and it's illegal, don't ya know.

DOES NOT GOTTA BE....

it is.

NOT IF THE LAIR IS REVEALED

it's me, i take the sins of fields
grown rich with it and ripe with gales
rain and thunder never fails neither do i,
now i'm slowing down....

how long till you conquer this town?
j
hmmm?

I'm sorry

to end this early, it would have been a catastrophe though...see my other blog for details.

*edit* not AN ADDIT!!! i mean edit hahah my typings messed up but to explain myself i'm not addicted to acting.

i'm addicted to energy and energizements that are on their way as well spoken.
Sometimes poetry can't be taken from a heart that's broken.

I hate cheesy stuff, and i love cheese. So what do i do with an allergy?
I take it away, take it back to where it came from
Hell is such a wonderful sight when viewd from the eye of the malstrom
Pot is an addictive drug, but baby wihtout it i would have flown as a dove
And you know i hate to fly, i fear it.
On the ground or at least right near it
Is where I like to be.

I-k. OPK??? Paphid loves everyone, especially bree and it's not me
Talking but hell who knows who knows when they will show
I'll let the errors go on, if you don't mind to know....

medititation is the key but wherre's the answrr?

i'm typing frunk after just a bit of cancer
we all die but not to worry
death cancles love in a rushed hurry
then returned with a provecy....upand down lead them you gobline.

the show must gone he said it be not so.
i sound like shakespeare, now doth owe
him everything and all he wonts he shall have
especcialy his changeling lad.

what's this? he assks....who ya think? i answer.
he is with me and always will be until....

"the time we speak again
until the time we LOVE again
we'll BLIND our eyes and NUMB our lips
PAINTING [ICTYIRES IN THE WONDEROUS WOULD
WITHOUT FINGERTIPS.
SO NOW TO eSCAPE THE SERPERNTS TONGUE
WE'L MAKE AMMEDNDS HERE LONG."

someone correct my eeroos, please oh wait not htat you mean....ARROWS? OH!!!

"I go i go, look how i go swifter than an arrow from a tar-tar's bow"
we are awake, and one and whole.

canceled is but the rabbit's holy union it is with me now....and i will set him freee aas promised...with a prophecy.

yah...kinda silly i know...see my actor's blog for more details.

Curtain Down-Applause?

none. Appraise is up though, apparently.

Or maybe a prayer just flew my way :)

So for thos esmart minded indiduals who actually read between the lines, congratulations. For those that hadn't....hehe, well SURPRISE!!

Finding Forrester is a funny movie but I always though my father more suitable for the part.

Not because, but why was it not me? My father is dying of cancer, I will see him soon. I don't mind that he gave me everything he wanted which was simply his undying passion. I knew what it was before I saw it ;)

My father loved me more than anyone in this universe, so he needed it to expand. There is a shuttle leaving for.....?

Hahaha, I'm sorry....some secrets are still kept but I hope it is not too far from home as I do get very homesick quickly.

However, back to the job at hand---I canceled. I don't want to do the play, it's too....cheesy for me. I'm allergic to lactose you see and that play was just too fun and games. We have a more serious issue to discuss and it will be done with love lust and all of the above.

Night guys!

Understanding

Understanding the entire script is vital. "I cannot stress enough..." Yes, it's vital.

Details are important but the whole sometimes needs to be taken into careful consideration. For the past few weeks details were scrutinized, and a conclusion reached. But wait! the conclusion may be quite surprising...or anticipated :)
Once again, let me remind you-Do not have a set fixed character. that is the director's idea to play with ;)

An actor by nature (yes it exists in our modern world now) has to be as an open book. Pages empty, too. I write as well so I have a good view from both angles, but acting was always my little thing. I did that before I even learned to write!

But enough chitter chatter. Tomorrow is our first real rehearsal. I can't wait!

I know it will be the happiest I've been for the few weeks we were just studying lines. That's because "Actors get bored when they're not acting. They just don't know what to do." This quote is not mine :)

That quote was by Alan, our producer and was a hopeful director until Gary came in. I don't really know there's some drama going on backstage again *rolls eyes*

Oh this is also good experience for an actor: When I was in high school, I joined the running crew and tech crew (though at that-I sucked! Yeah, I can't believe it either!!). It's very good to know what's going on all around even if you don't like it. Ignorance serves best to those who don't pay but knowledge is a given.

Anticipate!

The rehearsals.

Oh it's tough, isn't it?
Read between the lines of your character to fully understand what's going on. You have by now tried different methods, different actions to reach the same objectives and probably have a good mental view of the character already. Now is when rehearsals start and you pick a different way to play every night for the first week, usually but don't force it, first week's always for fun. It usually will come down to what the director tells you to do and what you feel comfortable with performing.

We have also already seen a set design for our stage. We have an excellent theatre, great sound and...amazing set though it sadly changes very little as always in Shakespeare. This means it's up to the actors alone to entertain and create a forest, castle or whatever so the audience can visualize it.

Yes, it is a challenge but all it really means is that actions must speak louder than words to keep the attention of the audience. Let's face it: Who'd want to just sit there watching two blokes standing stiff as surf boards talking in 3 minute monologues droning?
Not me, that's for sure.

So because this is a melo-drama which already means it needs to be BIG it needs to be even BIGGER to hit this AZ audience because they don't understand the difference between sarcastically exaggerating and bad acting, and I'll admit the line is thin....but not too thin, it's still walkable! :)

Starting Over

Oh dear...it seems I caught myself just in time. See when I auditioned for Puck I did what I said not to-and already had an almost set character knowing full well I was garanteed that part or Titania. I had the funniest walk down and was looking forward to experimenting with this character's movements and what it could/couldn't do.

However...just because you got the part doesn't mean you should keep it just that way. You got the part because yes, you did great at the auditions but you really got it because the director wants to see what else he can do with it, so be prepared to make some changes as I stated in my last entry.

I have to make many many changes...the funny lil walk I had for this character will NOT work in a clown collar skirt unless we plan to make this some weird goblin porn. Furthermore, I am not even sure anymore of my costume as I obviously (hopefully) will not be wearing a clown collar skirt. I saw one quick drawn sketch only and...well it wasn't much different from what I wore for photoshoot as far as the characters free movement range goes and so forth.

I do hope I'll get to climb a tree though! But what to do about the darn physical personality of Puck? I have it's jokes and pranks down, but that's just a small portion....

So, here is what you do when you're in a rut about finding the characters body:

Nothing :(

There's nothing you can do but practice different styles to show off at rehearsal. This is the time of waiting and thinking. Acting's not really involved :'-(

It is very difficult for me with my excitement to hold back and not just go about developing a character based off assumptions as I am in fact, very good at guess work and improvisation. However, this is the time I lay the script down. There are no rehearsals until the end of this month and there is nothing but memorization I can allow myself to work on. I already have my lines memorized so I'm going to be the grumpy work-a-holic I am when I have nothing to work on.

Or perhaps I'll just divulge in a little play of my own :)

again XD

An Unexpected Call

Reached me on monday of this week.

"We'll be having a photo session and costume parade at 4 if you can make it give me a call."

Of course by now we know to call back, right?

Sometimes things will pop up out of nowhere. Remember when I talked of relaxed readiness? A much better picture of this is a lion at hunt or a regular car drive. Basically all this means is relax and expect anything and everything. That also helps greatly with improvisation.

It's because I've already achieved that state that I was not angered that Karla had screwed up the times a bit and even given two girls the same part....though she should be doing her job as stage manager. However, still you need to be ready when they are lest it is your moment on the stage.

So what exactly is a costume parade and photo session? Well before the play (usually not THIS much before) the director and costume designers get together with a handful of actors to try on first tries of the costume. This also gives the director a clear view of what they'll be working with and how to best apply lighting and make-up. (Thirty minutes in make-up here, but then again...i am a puck!)

And ironically, and definitely to the entire campus' amusement these costumes were not finished, very flimsy and well...mine was a piece of lengerie with a clowns neck-collar as a skirt (don't ask how it fit, must have been a metal head clown) and the rest was scarves and twigs....so be prepared to...develop a character once again from scratch to fit the costume and director's idea.

Secondly, if you happen to be walking through campus in nothing but togas and sandals and scarves and the director does want you up in a tree HAVE FUN WITH IT! Because it's these slightly outrageous moments every actor loves. Even if your near bare cootch is being scraped up by a tree and you realize too late that your shoes are still on making both producer and director work on the unkottable knots you tied in there ages ago. lol even that can be learned from-wear easy clothing to remove and reapply at every rehearsal.

And another tip about actual pictures: The professional camera moves faster than yours, you can hear it by the clicks. In between those clicks (if you can move lol and you're not dangling in a tree by your last breath) is when you act your character, stopping before each click. Now if you do happen to be dangling in a tree with your tummy and leg muscles screaming you'll really put forth all you got because guess what-that's the only way down. There's facial expressions to make up for little body movement but don't be afraid to change posture as long as you plan it out ahead of time in your noggin, and move quickly enough.

One thing I personally always loved about photosessions was the fact that as much fun you may have with it shows in the finished product. Not only that but it's crazy fun to race a camera click to your next expression or pose. One thing I know I need to work on is looking/not looking at the camera and how that affects shots because eyes squint in sunlight and that makes the puck look a true creature of the night.